Well, it's my last day at home. This little birdie is leaving the nest. Am I ready? Debatable... But I've been told that I'll never feel ready until I take the jump. I recently learned a new term which I felt described my current state of mind very well. Graduation goggles. It's used to describe that feeling of extreme nostalgia you get following High School Graduation (maybe other graduations as well, but I wouldn't know yet). During my last year of High School I wanted nothing more than to graduate and move on to a new chapter. Then graduation finally did come. A day when everyone looks their best, when you can finally feel proud of all those years of work, and when people who you never spoke to suddenly seem incredibly important in your life. Kids who I barely recognized told me they would miss me and in my heart I felt that I would miss them just as much. As summer passed, I began to look back on High School with more and more fondness. I found myself missing everything from my teachers and friends to the bathrooms that didn't lock and the mysterious pair of pink shorts that somehow came to live in the last stall. Luckily, just as my nostalgia began to get out of control, an article about leaving home crossed my path. The article seemed to describe my feelings exactly. My initial excitement for leaving, and my eventual dread. The author suggested that it might be helpful to take pictures of the worst parts of your hometown and look at them when you need a reminder of why you left. So if anyone comes across a picture of me drenched with sweat from the 103 degree weather here... now you know why;) Aside from the heat, there really isn't anything I'm escaping by leaving. I guess I'll have to focus on the good things that I'm going towards rather than the bad things that I'm leaving behind. I think the most important thing that this article offered me was perspective. That is where "graduation goggles" came in. I needed to take a step back and not let my fear of the future cause me to live in an enhanced version of the past. I will always cherish my memories from high school; but I also know that more memories are yet to be made. Wish me luck :)
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AuthorHey, it's Kerry:) I have 2 older sisters and they both started a blogs... so naturally (being the little sister) I joined the bandwagon. So here I am! I hope you enjoy, if not... well go find something else to do. :) Archives
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